Year 3, Week 12: Persistence

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For December, we are reading Scroll Three. “I persist until I succeed.”

We are constantly being tested by life. We were not put here to fail, yet failure may find us.

The prizes of life are at the end of each journey, not near the beginning; and it is not given to me to know how many steps are necessary in order to reach my goal. Failure I may still encounter at the thousandth step, yet success hides behind the next bend in the road. I never know how close it lies unless I turn the corner.

Always I take another step. If that is of no avial I take another, and yet another. In truth, one step at a time is not too difficult.

I persist until I succeed.

I avoid despair but if this disease of the mind should infect me then I work on in despair. I toil and I endure. I ignore the obstacles at my feet and keep mine eyes on the goas above my head, for I know where dry desert ends, green grass grows.

I persist until I succeed.

I sometimes forget how important this (and each) chapter is to me.

I’ve always known I’m not motivated by the flashy things so many people find rewarding. My methods result in slow growth, but I had a conversation with someone today which reinforced my methods as right for me. I have always persisted. I consider myself a success in so many ways that matter to me. But something is out of alignment lately.

My Personal Pivotal Needs have been True Health and Autonomy, but I largely have Autonomy. I have a long journey for True Health, and I am on that path. I think the time may be right to switch Autonomy with another Personal Pivotal Need. I’ll be exploring that in my Sits this week.