{"id":16463,"date":"2025-09-22T10:14:22","date_gmt":"2025-09-22T15:14:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/?p=16463"},"modified":"2025-09-19T09:53:45","modified_gmt":"2025-09-19T14:53:45","slug":"29-months","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/29-months\/","title":{"rendered":"29 Months"},"content":{"rendered":"

Earlier this month, I saw a paper bag and teared up. Why? Paper bags were Alan’s preferred way to wrap a barn lantern for travel. I no longer have a need to wrap barn lanterns, and that memory caught me in a tough way.<\/p>\n

I’m still doing what absolutely needs to be done. For what should be done and what I supposedly want to do, I’m moving like sludge. I’m in an okay place, but joy and happiness continue to elude me most of the time. I realize those are internal things and I am supposed to have control over them, but I’m not finding it.<\/p>\n

Jase has been accepted into a double blind study of an anti-aging drug, and he has started the protocol this month. I don’t know if it’s my imagination or not, but he’s even bouncier than usual. He prances across the front yard when I take him outside. He also seems to need or want to go outside more often. He spends a lot of time sniffing.<\/p>\n

It has been brought to my attention that I might want to work on adjusting my “bulldog” expression. Thank you, Randy, for taking the photo. Yeah, maybe I don’t need this ALL the time.<\/p>\n

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I’m beginning to suspect my new reality involves discovering tears running down my face at odd times for no apparent reason at all.\u00a0 Okay. That’s a strange one, but I guess I’ll deal with it for now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Earlier this month, I saw a paper bag and teared up. Why? Paper bags were Alan’s preferred way to wrap a barn lantern for travel. I no longer have a need to wrap barn lanterns, and that memory caught me in a tough way. I’m still doing what absolutely needs …<\/span> Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[461],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16463","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-transitions"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16463","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=16463"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16463\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16476,"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16463\/revisions\/16476"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=16463"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=16463"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jeanschara.com\/pmtoo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=16463"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}