Week 17HJ – Dominating Thoughts

Second. I realize the dominating thoughts of my mind will eventually reproduce themselves in outward, physical action, and gradually transform themselves into physical reality.

When I read this at the beginning of the course, I mentally gasped in horror. No wonder I was always snapping at my husband. Over the years, my thoughts had become focused on his more annoying traits and not his more endearing ones. I was witnessing the outward manifestation of those inward thoughts far too often. And so was he.

At the beginning of the course, he thought it sounded like brainwashing. I couldn’t disagree, except that the techniques were being used for good — in my case, to improve our relationship (among other things). I’ve resenting having to “brainwash” myself to love my husband; however, the Blueprint Builder drove home in agonizing clarity that I’d slowly done that to myself through the years by focusing on the traits that annoyed me instead of those that endeared me. The principles taught in this course have enabled me to reverse that awful trend.

He hasn’t said if he’s noticed any improvement in me or not. At Week 6, in an unsolicited conversation, he said he hadn’t. He’s been pretty neutral about the course requirements since then, which may be as close as I get to an acknowledgement that I’m improving. I know I have a ways to go, but I’m employing the Laws of the Mind as appropriate when those negative thoughts intrude.

I have so much more I’m working on in this course, but this is my top priority. Other things are fitting in as I am able.

Why did I gasp in horror? My husband was very ill at the time. We later learned he had bilateral pneumonia, and we suspect he had it from October until he was diagnosed and treated in early January. He is improving, but my mind spent a lot of time dwelling on what my old blueprint may have been manifesting, and that wasn’t a pleasant thought.