Tag: SIT

Week 19 – Fodder for a Sit

I recommended the class to a friend earlier this week. He responded he’d looked into the class but didn’t think it was right for him. No problem. I can accept that. It isn’t right for everybody. (Well, I think it is, but I can understand why someone else might not think so.) He went on to say he was interested in the results for me, adding he did think it was only making internal changes for me, because he hadn’t seen anything external yet, and he was looking forward to the external impact.

Hmm. Okay. Part of my DMP should be externally represented as it’s manifested, and, as written, I agree there should be external results at this point. Those are the areas I’m rethinking now, because that has not happened yet. The most important part is manifesting, and it’s mostly internal work, and it’s been, to put it indelicately, hard as hell for me.

I devoted my Sit to that subject on the day I read the comment (we don’t live near one another, and like most of my friends, our interaction is largely electronic). I believe my other DMP manifestations have been delayed because I’m placing so much energy on this most important aspect of my DMP. The other aspects are important, but this first one is critical to me. Since the Sit, I’ve given it additional consideration, and the fact that internal work has not been visible is a positive sign in and of itself, because, as you know, Law of Growth.

The Recognition for Creative Expression personal pivotal need (PPN), which would be most outwardly visible, will manifest, or maybe I’ll realize it isn’t as important as I once thought and re-evaluate for the correct PPN, rewriting my DMP to reflect that. For now, I’m sticking with this one. The physical aspect of my True Health has not manifested either, and I’m devoting time to finding better baby steps to help with that manifestation. Meanwhile, the top half of my DMP is manifesting, albeit slowly, I know it’s happening. And, yes, for 99.99% of the world, that’s an internal manifestation with outward implications for only one other person. Upon reflection, I’m good with that, so, thank you, my friend, for helping me achieve that clarity in my own mind.

Week 16 – Master Key-Og Power

At first, the Master Keys seemed boring and tedious to read. Now, I’m seeing their power. The effect has been cumulative. And I’m thrilled for a completely non-MKMMA reason as well. One thing I’ve wanted to do but never felt like I did “right” was meditate. I already knew there was not a prescribed method for it, but it still didn’t seem to be beneficial in any practical way. As a result of this course, even though I’m disappointed in how effectively I conduct my Sits to date, I’ve still gained at least one instance of BAM! insight, and I’m confident I’ll improve my ease with the process enough to achieve much more insight in the days, months, and years to come. That instance of BAM! insight? I can understand why people say they’ve heard the voice of God, because that’s exactly what it was like.

The Master Keys have shown the way, and each week, we’re led a little closer to being more effective at visualizing our new reality. 16-28 is particularly powerful for me this week: “If you desire to visualize a different environment, the process is simply to hold the ideal in mind, until your vision has been made real; give no thought to persons, places or things; these have no place in the absolute; the environment you desire will contain everything necessary; the right persons, and the right things will come at the right time and in the right place.”

This month’s scroll has so much power, but I’m going to focus on a little piece that I don’t think gets much attention. “And nature knows not defeat. Eventually, she emerges victorious and so will I, and with each victory the next struggle becomes less difficult.” Nature always wins. I may take centuries, but Nature wins. We persist, and we win. We are nature’s greatest miracle.

Gimme the Keys!

 

Week 1 – Definite Major Purpose (DMP)

While waiting for our first webinar session this afternoon, I did my mid-day reading and worked on my Definite Major Purpose. I had just made notes Friday and Saturday. This afternoon, I found some words I was drawn to in the Scroll. Coupled with the notes I already had, I constructed a first draft of my DMP.  One hundred and fifty-one words. We have a four hundred word limit. Not so fast. I have a few areas to address yet, so that will add a few words. I need to had some specifics. And, of course, I don’t have the best choice of words yet, but I am pleased with this beginning.

I believe I’ll get a better feel for what is expected after today’s session. I still have to find the best time and approach for discussing this class with my husband. I’m getting some ideas. I just hope he’s receptive. He surprises me sometimes. And he’s always offended when I doubt him, so that’s something I will get fixed via this course.

Last night’s SIT was a little more challenging. Since I’d been around poison ivy earlier in the day, I took a shower before bed. I must have gotten water in my ears, because while I was sitting there, it felt like some insect had gotten into my ear and was buzzing. I had to clear my ears, and I started over. I finished the second time, but only if I don’t count the two time I peeked at the timer. I will do better. I also found thoughts were not moving through my mind, which did seem to make the time go more slowly.

The course tasks are feeling a little more routine after a couple of days. I expected this to be the case, but it’s encouraging to feel things falling into place.

Week 1 – First Impressions

We have the materials for the first week. Here are my first impressions. As expected, a fire hose effect, but that’s a factor of the newness and the desire to do it right. I’m going to do my best, but some of the honor tasks might not get done right. I’m going to do them one way or another, but it’s going to be strange.

At least blogging is comfortable for me. I was able to SIT last night before bed for the required 15 minutes. I was more still than in my previous meditation attempts, but I read a member’s blog from last year who had some troubles with it because of swallowing? Well, if I have to sit that still, I’m going to have some work to do, but last night was a beginning, and I know there’s much more to this journey.

I’m encountering resistance in the form of technology. My printer is giving me a hard time. All the color cartridges are replaced, but even though the drum has 13% life left, I suspect I will need to replace it, too. I have one. Not a problem. I’ll take care of it next time I go upstairs.

I like the idea of reading Scroll 1 three times a day for 30 days. My initial struggle is going to be reading aloud in the evenings for the next two weeks. We’ll be traveling, and I haven’t told my husband I’m doing this class yet. I see one of the requirements is we discuss this with our family, so I’m going to have to figure out a way to do that. In the past, he’s been quite negative about things similar to this class, but since one reason I’m taking the class is to get my Definite Major Purpose (DMP) right, and he’s part of my DMP, I realize I was silly to think I could do the class and not discuss it with him.

That’s one strong resistance area for me, and that’s a part of my Old Blueprint I’m here to change. See, I’m quite fortunate that many of the reasons other people want this course are not a factor in my life. Money isn’t a problem. Material things are only a problem in that I have too many. I had a comfortable career and was able to retire at 47 — something I never imaged doing in my wildest of dreams until it became closer to reality. My husband and I can and do travel when and where we want. Our homes and vehicles are paid in full.

My relationships with other people are superficial, and I’ve withdrawn from most in person relationships, largely because I retired to a small town where we didn’t know anyone, and all my friends and family are at least 500 miles away. I’m not too concerned about that except where it affects my husband and my parents. Perhaps my siblings. My husband and I have been married 21 years (October 15), and we’ve known one another for 30 years. For the first 14 years of our marriage, we were geographically separated. Learning to live together for the last seven years has been one of the more challenging things I’ve ever done. I don’t think I’ve done a good job. My husband wants to keep me, and I want to keep him, so I need to learn to communicate better with him and be a better wife.

Additionally, I have some health issues that would be improved all the way around if I lost a significant amount of weight — almost half of me.

Finally, I want to write competent fiction to at least self-publish.

The one thing I’ve been passionate about these last five years or so is my cats. I’ve been doing a one person rescue and have eight indoor and four outdoor cats I take care of. I want to expand those passions to my husband, my health, and my fiction.

I’m obsessing a little about the scheduling challenges of Week 2, 3, and 5 for the course due to required travel, but I suspect, as someone says, taking it one day and week at a time, and things will work out.