Year-In-Review
The year is drawing to a close. I haven’t decided upon firm goals for 2007 yet, but, as part of the process, I believe a review of 2006’s goals and how they shaped up is appropriate. Goals are in regular text. Goal status is in italics.
Personal
- Successfully transition to a vegetarian (eventually getting to vegan) diet (vegetarian transition successful)
- Challenge myself fitness-wise to improve overall fitness level (I have no problem working out regularly; I just don’t feel as if I’m deriving much benefit from it) (I worked out, but I feel as if I’m in worse shape than where I started — the knee injury and subsequent surgery didn’t help, but I’m not pleased with where I am now)
- Read more books than last year (watch the reading list to track progress) (59 books, and I hope to get one more in before tomorrow night for an even 60)
- Keep duty performance high at work; keep the boss happy (boss is happy)
- Even though we’re 800 miles apart, find ways to keep engaged with hubby (hubby and I are engaged with one another)
- Keep finding ways to get rid of excess “stuff” around the house (some success — but I have so far to go)
Writing
- Continue ?on-the-fly? rewriting of Threads & Ties, then finish writing (not finished yet)
- Rewrite Twilight incorporating planned changes and what I learn from Threads & Ties (not at this point yet)
- Rewrite Polar Bear on the Loose, incorporating what I’ve learned from the previous two efforts (haven’t even started)
- Brainstorm and plan my NaNoWriMo novel (well, I didn’t plan it, but the entire NaNo work was an on-the-fly brainstorm session — probably the only writing goal I accomplished this year, and not a bit of it will ever be salable)
- Draft query letters (nope)
- Scrub synopses (nope)
- Research agents in anticipation of querying after the first three goals are met (I did a very little bit of this)
As I suspected, I failed at meeting every single one of my writing goals for this year — I felt as if it was a poor writing year, and reviewing goal accomplishment affirms that. It’s done. It’s in the past. I refuse to beat myself up about it. It’s time to move ahead. Time to prepare for 2007.
One good thing about the New Year is that you get to start new. I didn’t do so hot with my resolutions (I don’t make many, because I know I won’t keep them, ha ha.) One of them was to finish a novel and at least two other projects. I’m only on page 64 of my novel, and the only other thing I’ve written is one short story. That’s it.
And, on the plus side, your personal goals were accomplished fantastically. Most people fail at all their goals.
Hope the New Year brings you the accomplishment of all your new goals!
Happy New Year,
Jason
I always struggle with a balance between setting specific goals and floating with my own natural unfolding. The two are probably quite separate, ultimately speaking (if there is such a thing), as my conscious mind tends to function according to self-images that are very socially oriented, vs. my subconscious self that is super-subjective.
Success, I seem to remember you writing, is measured by how many people ask you for advice. You said, according to this definition, you were very successful but I detected a hint of sarcasmas if this wasnt your real measure of success. Everyone has their own definition of success. It’s whatever makes you feel especially expansive. (I say that as if it’s an objective definition, which, of course, satisfactorily contradicts my immediately previous statement).
I wouldnt say that I was particularly successful in terms of my positioning in the social organismnor were my moments fantastically significant. But in a more self-accepting sense I moved towards a fuller realization of both these poles.
I did accomplish something that I have been meaning to accomplish for a long time, that was difficult for me, and that was really quite small, but at the same time, really quite significant. One of my favorite quotes, which is to say, one that is most important for me to apply meaningfully, is Carl Sagans: Small steps Ellie. Small Steps. I also consider that we often overestimate what we can do in a year and underestimate what we can do in a decade. I made some important small steps. In a decade theyll avalanche. Compound interest. Butterfly effect. Exponential increase. Etc.
Ive also discovered something that is very important for me, and which I mention because it has to do with New Years Resolutions, turning over new loafs and getting the leaves to rise, or whatever A personal constitution. But, like I said in the beginning of this post, there has to be a subtle balance between specificity and flexibility. I look to the successes and failures of the U.S. constitution, somewhat, in this regard. What I want is something that is changeable, yet stable. Something that is always followed, because in fact it is simply me at this moment distilled into words as best as I can. Something that will always be with me and that will help me accomplish my goals while not doing injustice to my moment to moment intelligence. Its a work in progressand importantly, always will be (for, it is a mirror of me).
I actually think of this constitution as an operating system, more than a constitution. And its less an inventing of a Human Operating System as an uncovering of a Mythical Operating System. Hence, some of my sausage grinding. I call it the MOS. Read Jungs Symbols of Transformation in this regard.
Anywho, Im getting off 16 hours of work, here, and am excited to get home and finally reap the rewards of a long stretch of moments dedicated to money dedicated to the acquisition of items dedicated to further catalyzing my process of self-unfoldment. Im just a flower growing roots into the soil so that I may bloom (again).
Perhaps what I was getting at is that I detect (and my sensors are dirty and their data isn’t taken to be noiseless, nor are the functions those data are input into believed to be more than approximations) a possibility of a strong Will smothering a sensitive flower. Sometimes the will gets its own momentum and slowly but inexorably accomplishments become more important as such than as what they help unfold within us. But too, sensitive flowers evolve to match their environments, and a strong will is a valid environment for a sensitive flower that has grown in step with that will. Leopard’s a beautiful, strong creatures–on Earth.