TODAY I begin a new life.
TODAY I shed my old skin which hath, too long, suffered the bruises of failure and the wounds of mediocrity.
TODAY I am born anew and my birthplace is a vineyard where there is fruit for all.
TODAY I pluck grapes of wisdom from the tallest and fullest vines in the vineyard, for these were planted by the wisest of my profession who have come before me, generation upon generation.
TODAY I savor the taste of grapes from these vines and verily I swallow the seed of success buried in each and new life sprouts within me.
TODAY I begin a new life.
TODAY my old skin has become as dust. I walk tall among men and they know me not, for today I am a new woman, with a new life.
This year, I noticed the emphasis upon TODAY in Scroll 1. This is not coincidental. I’m learning to focus on this day (that the Lord has made).
TODAY, I remember I can attach any feeling I desire to any thought. TODAY, I remember I can instantly replace a negative thought with a positive one. TODAY, I practice these laws and perform amazingly because of practice, because TODAY (and every day) my subconscious works 24-7 to manifest what I plant along with my DMP.
I owe it to my Subby (and, subsequently, myself) to incorporate these laws more fully into my daily life.
Why do I cling to bad feelings? In certain areas, I’m annoyingly stubborn, that’s why. For some reason, there are things in my life I don’t like that I’m unwilling to do what it would take to eliminate them. Some of these things many people would consider highly desirable, yet, because I don’t like them, I resist letting my resentment go to begin choosing to think a positive thought and attach positive feelings. Why? Why do I think it important that I cling to not wanting to do something that is generally so desirable? This is pure craziness. I haven’t wanted to do it in the past. I’ve agreed it’s important for me to do it now. I’ve accepted that on one level, but I’m resisting it on another level. Maybe I feel less valued in some way or taken for granted because I’ve chosen to do it, but in reality, I’m not valued more or less for making this choice. It is what it is. I have no reason to expect it to get better (but maybe I should, because if I apply those laws, maybe it will).
To quit the “vaguebooking, ” I’ll provide a little detail. In the past, I’ve resisted my husband’s annual vacation. I didn’t like the trip. I didn’t want to go, yet my driving contributed to my husband’s safety. If I didn’t go, he’d be driving a rental car around PA with one eye on a laptop GPS and the other on the road (I know this, because before I retired, this was what he would do when I couldn’t get off work to accompany him on this trip). A few years ago, I decided me driving was my gift to him, yet I resented the gift. Not much of a gift if the giver is grouchy about it and gives with a grudging attitude, is it? I did better this year, but when I am honest with myself, I have a long way to go mentally. Too often, I found myself reverting to thinking thoughts that would result in me being grumpy and a less than pleasant companion for my husband.
It’s not too early to begin building good habits for next year. Time to renew my effort with the mental diet and focus on the laws I’ve not been practicing enough. Grapes are on sale this week, too. I better stock up.