I’m not sure what to make of this, but my name is on the list. I have mixed emotions. I can safely say now that as late as Saturday night, I had entered in my journal I was not going to apply for this. I maintained now was not the time for me, even though I felt a tug to get right in my head, because I know my issues are not due to lack of knowledge, but they are due to my subconscious mind sabotaging my efforts. It does this for a reason, and I’m looking forward to reprogramming it for more desirable outcomes.
I returned from out of town and had time to listen to the rebroadcast of the Q&A session. While I was listening to that, I became very comfortable with the idea of submitting my Pay-It-Forward Scholarship application. I realized the things that concerned me about Mark J’s conversation were simply his journey. His experiences. While I believe he’s had some background experiences that were similar to my experiences, they are a different journey from mine. They are not incompatible with my journey and may provide some common ground.
I also realized as I listened to another launch from another group I participate in that some similar language was being used, and I reminded myself the Hero’s Journey has an unlimited number of paths, and many, if not all of us, are each on our unique path. Sometimes, the language of that journey overlaps.
I’ve had a very blessed life. I’ve learned to be happy in recent years, but I am not satisfied. This is a very personal journey, and it’s likely to be one of the hardest — and quite possibly, one of the easiest — things I’ve ever done. When I am successful, I believe it will be worth it.
Jean, I think you’re well on your way. I’m really glad you did decide to join, you’re going to get a lot out of it. 🙂
Thank you. I told myself I wouldn’t, and I told myself I wouldn’t, and then I did. The timing was never going to be good. I remember when I was discussing taking my comprehensive exams with my graduate adviser twenty years ago. I told him I was busy at work, and it wasn’t a good time. He reminded me I would always be busy at work, and it would never be a good time. I scheduled the exams, and everything worked out. This was pretty much the same argument with myself.
I just listened to the first video. I posted to FB as was the first step. I did not see a place to enter an email so I really hope I do get the 2nd video. Funny, this is not the best time in my life. The next 2 months will be huge change as we move to a new house again. It will be a huge physical challenge for me and mental. I need to believe in myself again, so I am hoping this can teach me how to that. I guess we will see if I quality. Part of me is eager and part of me feels intimidated and part feels I’m getting a path I’ve travel before and why should I expect the results to change, yet the words from the video captured my attention, “Hope is not a strategy.” Well I am hoping.
Cool. I’m excited for you, Juneta.